Been awhile since Ive updated.
So I just turned 20 not even a week ago and I feel as lost as I did when I was a new born. I dont know how but I get these damn Ideas in my head and then never realize how good i really have it. For example, my ex gf, shes a great girl that is gorgeous and probably could have taught me to be a better person, which to me is a thing that someone should always admire. The fact that I can look at her and realize that she has a few tricks up her sleeve I should learn. And the best part is she is the nicest damn person in the world so I even feel worse for breaking her heart. The day I broke up with her I had no real true reason, I wasn’t unhappy, bored, or sexually deprived, i was just lost again. It seems like I fall into this “mind frame” every time I come back home for summer. It is possible because I have to much time on my hands and over think things way too much (and I have always said that girls over think things). Another reason why I am lost… I have no fucking idea what to do in school, its boring, it sucks, and I know I just like building and creating things (wow super unique and innovative).
